You Belong With Me

You're on the phone with your girlfriend shes upset. Shes going off about something that you said 'Cuz she doesn't, get your humor like I do... I'm in the room It's a typical Tuesday night I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like and she'll never know your story like i do But she wears short skirts I wear T-shirts She's cheer captain And I'm on the bleachers Dreaming about the day when you wake up And find what you're looking for has been here the whole time If you could see that I'm the one who understands you been here all along so why can't you see, you You belong with me You belong with me Walkin' the streets with you and your worn-out jeans I can't help thinking this is how it ought to be Laughing on a park bench, thinking to myself Hey isn't this easy And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town I haven't seen it in a while since she brought you down You say you're fine I know you better then that Hey whatcha doing with a girl like that She wears high heels I wear sneakers Shes cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find That what you're looking for has been here the whole time If you could see that I'm the one who understands you Been here all along so why can't you see You belong with me Standing by and waiting at your back door all this time how could you not know Baby.... You belong with me You belong with me Oh I remember you drivin' to my house in the middle of the night I'm the one who makes you laugh When you know you're about to cry And i know your favorite songs And you tell me about your dreams Think I know where you belong Think I know it's with me... Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you Been here all along So why can't you see You belong with me Standing by and waiting at your back door All this time How could you not know Baby you belong with me You belong with me You belong with me Have you ever thought just maybe you belong with me You belong with me...


Taylor Swift's You Belong With Me

Just So You Know

Why is it that I have so much that I need to say, but for once in my life my big mouth wants to keep quiet? I don't understand it. Why is it that I can't just tell someone how I feel? Why is it that I feel as though I have to pretend I don't have feelings for someone when I really do? Why is it that I'm possibly falling for someone who is in a relationship? What the hell is wrong with me? These are the many unanswered questions that I have in my life right now. I am falling for someone who I am really good friends with and they just happen to conveniently be in a relationship. Why is this happening to me? I seriously don't understand my logic in this whole situation, but you know sometimes I lack intelligence and make the stupidest decisions ever, like this for instance. I mean seriously how much stupider can I get...I'm falling for a guy who has a girlfriend!!!! News flash Kristen you probably don't have a chance in hell to be with him. But yet I'm sticking around and almost in a sense being played as his girlfriend on the side and I'm going to be the idiot left hurt at the end of all of this. I'm seriously a freakin' moron. I don't know what to do. Do I tell them how I feel or continue with my little act? On one hand I could tell them I feel and potentially lose a friend or make things awkward...or...I could tell them how I feel and gain something. I just don't know what to do. I'm so confused. I'm caught in a really tough spot right now, and I don't want to fuck anything up. Why is this so hard? I need a sign, something to let me know what the right decision is.

"It's getting hard to be around you/ There's so much I can't say/ Do you want me to hide the feelings/ And look the other way?" -Jesse McCartney's Just So You Know

Balance

This pretty much sums up my life right now: "Sometimes you have to take a step back to see what's really going on. Maybe that's what we both really need to do right now...find our balance again." -Roswell

I really do need to find the balance in my life. I realized that I have become so goal-orientated because I have a slight problem trusting people and I'm always afraid people are going to let me down and because of this I have been pushing certain people/things away recently. What the hell is wrong with me!?!?! The people I think are going to stick around-let me down or walk away, and the people you think you could trust lie to protect you from the truth, so I just have this fear that its this continuing pattern that will never end. Maybe one of these days someone will prove me wrong.

Have you ever wanted something so bad, but knew you couldn't have it? Yeah I feel like that too right now. But sometimes you just have to push aside those feelings and go on with your life like nothing is there, and I think I have done a pretty good job with it even though it's incredibly hard to do.

Thanksgiving Break is right around the corner and it can not come at a better time. Only 2 weeks away!! (: Once this semester is over I'll be even happier!! However I am dreading the 18 hours I have next semester, plus summer school...fun stuff. I'm just ready to graduate and go to New York or Florida, but I have two and a half more years.

"Life is a balance of holding on and letting go" :Unknown: