Balance

This pretty much sums up my life right now: "Sometimes you have to take a step back to see what's really going on. Maybe that's what we both really need to do right now...find our balance again." -Roswell

I really do need to find the balance in my life. I realized that I have become so goal-orientated because I have a slight problem trusting people and I'm always afraid people are going to let me down and because of this I have been pushing certain people/things away recently. What the hell is wrong with me!?!?! The people I think are going to stick around-let me down or walk away, and the people you think you could trust lie to protect you from the truth, so I just have this fear that its this continuing pattern that will never end. Maybe one of these days someone will prove me wrong.

Have you ever wanted something so bad, but knew you couldn't have it? Yeah I feel like that too right now. But sometimes you just have to push aside those feelings and go on with your life like nothing is there, and I think I have done a pretty good job with it even though it's incredibly hard to do.

Thanksgiving Break is right around the corner and it can not come at a better time. Only 2 weeks away!! (: Once this semester is over I'll be even happier!! However I am dreading the 18 hours I have next semester, plus summer school...fun stuff. I'm just ready to graduate and go to New York or Florida, but I have two and a half more years.

"Life is a balance of holding on and letting go" :Unknown: