Right now I am supposed to be revising my English paper, but as you can see...that's not exactly getting done. Well it's midterm week...and of course I'm stressing and I'm going to be studying my ass off all week...how fun is that. I'm going back to Wake Forest Thursday to visit my parents and brother so that should be fun. I'm going to be ready to come back home though. I'd much rather be in Charlotte.
Not too much happened this weekend, because I'm a loser and studied and worked at the paper all weekend. But, I did go out Thursday night, and something very unexpected happened, but I'm actually kinda happy about it so we will see if anything comes of it (:
However I am a little frustrated with a certain someone who claims they aren't happy, but yet they continue to stay with their "significant other" knowing that they can do so much better. Whatever. I have tried to convince this certain person that whether it's hard to break up with someone or not, you have to think about yourself sometimes and what is best for you. You deserve to be just as happy. Yet that just doesn't seem to sink in. Guess there is nothing else I can do. I'm just going to have to be happy for that person even if it means seeing them somewhat miserable.
Well tomorrow is the anniversary of jR's death. I can't believe that it has been 4 years. It still makes me really sad to think about him not being around. And tomorrow is going to be tough for me like it is every October 6, but I have to remember that he is in a better place. "Sunny days seem to hurt the most, wear the pain like a heavy coat. I feel you everywhere I go. I see your smile, I see your face, I hear you laughing in the rain, still can't believe you're gone. It ain't fair you died too young, like a story that had just begun. The death tore the pages all away. God knows how I miss you, all the hell that I've been through, just knowing, no one could take your place, and sometimes I wonder...WHO YOU'D BE TODAY." -Kenny Chesney.
It has been really hard on me losing 9 friends during high school, and I just hope that no one ever has to go through what I did, and I just hope I don't have to go through the pain of losing another friend. Being a teenager and thinking that you're invincible is a great feeling, until you watch 9 friends lives end tragically-you definitely have a new appreciation for life and you learn how to take each day and seize every opportunity, because you don't know what tomorrow will hold.
R.I.P JR, Jamie, Stephen, AB, Tim, Baker, Steven, Sadiki, Neil
I miss all of you, but I know I'll be seeing you again someday
"I don't really believe in regrets. All my experienes, even the ones that didn't turn out the way I wanted them to, I firmly believe that they were all worth it." ::Gilmore Girls::
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