Something's gotta change..

What a week it has been thus far. I am just in one of my moods and it doesn't help when everywhere I look on campus there are people holding hands, kissing, hugging, flirting, and just being gross. It's seriously almost as though it's national make Kristen aware she is single and alone week. I'm not sure why it bothers me, but it does. I just miss that comfort of having someone always there for me. But I also need to let people in sometimes, considering that I always think that everyone I meet will let me down, but that seems to be one constant pattern in my life, and I am constantly expecting people to just leave and/or let me down. Other than me being constantly reminded I have no boyfriend or anyone that I'm currently talking to, everything else is still stressful...go figure. School still hasn't calmed down. I seriously need a vacation! I really just wish I could get away from here for a while. I just want to lay on the beach somewhere far away, just look out into the never ending ocean and just forget about everything. Unfortunately that isn't going to happen. So all I can look forward to is fall break which can not come soon enough. I haven't been home in over a month so it'll be nice to just go home for a few days and maybe catch up on some sleep [minus the fact that I have to go to the eye doctor, I think I have been straining my eyes with as much as I'm studying and on the damn computer]. I got a 90 on my Spanish quiz...maybe things are starting to look up in that class-I have a test in there Tuesday which means I will have to study my ass off so that I can get an A on it. I really have to step up my game....good grades=Columbia. So basically I am going to be spending another weekend studying and doing homework because guess what next week is...that's right MIDTERMS! Awesome...I have to study for Global, Spanish, and write [actually revise] my English paper that took me 5 hours to write and I only got a B- on...WHAT THE FUCK!? Although, I'm not going to complain considering some people in the class got D's and F's. And on top of all the studying and homework this weekend, I have to cover two volleyball games, and a womens soccer game. What a fun-filled weekend I have to look forward to, I'm just soo excited. NOT. Well I guess I have procrastinated enough, guess it's back to the massive amount of homework and studying that is waiting for me.